2/3/2011 MMPA ------ I JUST CANT DO IT …..

It’s a funny thing to say so though it’s a bit embarrassing at the same time: I just can’t control my body naturally.

For example, we tried to breathe with tummy today. Yeah, I breathed in and held….1,2,3…. Everything seemed fine but when I breathed out, the air inside my body suddenly disappeared thus I couldn’t sustain the length as I took in the air.

What’s going on?

HYF told me ‘too hard.’ ….. o I know I am too concentrated in doing all these basic actions…… BUT I JUST CANT HELP IT !!!!!

Depressed is what I felt after the lesson. I suddenly remember there is a ridiculous book called ’secret’ several years ago (my mum introduced it to me), I hate the book as I find it so non-sense. However, in this situation, I think I may just have to do whatever thing I can---- make believe by keep persuading myself ----- LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO

LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO

LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO LETGO

OK, just let go (though in a large possibility that I am still ‘that bad’ in the following lessons ~~)